Why do I still wonder why she fucking decided to ditch me, and all the shared dreams we supposedly had? It drives me nuts.. makes no sense.. light switch effect for sure.. worshipped me at the beginning.. to a 2me class citizen after kids, to shed rather be alone than working together to raise our family.. I know my mental health will be better without her.. but I just wished we could rewind the last year and both have chosen to be a little kinder to each other.. damnit.. I hope it isn’t like this forever….