So, the summer finally came to my neck of the woods, and with it the happy couples and other reminders of my loneliness.

External stuff like this comes and goes, but the foundations of this conflict stay the same: I don't have and a significant other and haven't had one for may years, and this either means that 1) the laws of universe are rigged against people of my kind (and in this case why should I even bother trying to contribute to it, or to meet its demands?) or that 2) I'm an inferior and broken male, not capable of the most basic act of emotional bonding which is available even to simple animals. I hope you see how accepting scenario 1 is way easier for me, and in the recent days I see myself more and more falling back to that "hypergamous girls rejecting nice guys to chase exciting Chad Thundercock" bullshit I'm hopelessly trying to quit for like a year now.

Needless to say that with this mindset it's almost impossible to initiate because desperation mixed with resentment is probably the most secure way of never having anyone closer than the most superfluous acquaintance, but I honestly don't see how I can escape this two-fold dilemma. It's really like this, either the world has wronged me or I'm an inferior male. I can see no logical workarounds here.

any feedback will be appreciated