Everyone always says you should self improve for yourself and no one else. However, the way i see it is a man who doesn’t know what it’s like to he attractive to women couldn’t possibly just self improve for himself because women’s validation will always be in his subconscious. This is exactly what I’m experiencing now. I’ve lost a ton of weight and graduated college. However, I’m still fat, ugly, don’t make enough money, and i have suicidal thoughts. I understand that i have to work on getting my own place and a good paying job, but throwing out job applications and my resume seem to be going no where as of right now, but I digress. When i was watching RP content a year ago, I thought maybe if i took my weight loss seriously, then maybe some women would find me attractive, but even then, it’s still the same as if I hadn’t lost any weight.

I did have about 3 relationships with women in the past before my weight loss, but I’ve never had sex with a woman. If i had sex with a woman, then It will be in my mind that i can do it again, and it’ll be easier to let go of this feeling.

Before you say something like “you shouldn’t place women or sex on a pedestal”, I agree but if a man never experienced sex with a woman, or even worse a relationship, how is he not supposed to put women on a pedestal subconsciously. It inevitable.

My final question is how am I, a 22 year old man, supposed to work on myself for me when i barely know what’s it’s like to have women’s validation?