this might be a long one so TLDR: went from 'beta' and having 0 women wanting me to 'chad' and had multiple women at the same time thanks to the game, so how can i get over that?

I discovered TRP at around my 18th birthday. it was eye opening because it confirmed every thought I had about women. At this time, I was new to hitting the gym. after a few months I started gaining huge amounts of muscles, having bigger shoulders etc. I started to play with women and had huge success in it. I always dm'ed them on instagram and 2 weeks later they were in my bed. I did this for about half a year and tbh it made me much more depressed time by time because I realized that most women just wanted me because of my newly gained status. Even old girl friends (not girlfriends) hit me up. I have since stopped dating though and 'gone my own way' in the mean time. So how do I get out of having red pill thoughts when I experienced the effects for myself in its whole capacity and know, that it works almost every time? I'm searching for an answer since about a year now... every help is appreciated, thanks