That's right. I am those things. I suddenly woke up this morning to that grim realization. I am that man. That pathetic man. I am frightened of my gf. I tiptoe around her all the time because I'm scared of her. Of her moods. Of doing or saying the wrong thing. She has bitched about me to her friends and family and they all hate me because I have said the wrong thing to her and she has gone to them and spoken about what should be private business between two people. She isn't interested in me at all. If I share something with her, she always finds an excuse not to be involved yet I have always taken an interest in what she has shared with me. There's no reciprocity at all. She has a nasty tone and demeans me and others. I am under her thumb totally. At her beckon call. I am miserable. I love her and so emotions are involved but I seriously just want out however my fear is she will become thoroughly hateful and nasty if I try and leave. She has accused her exes of being violent towards her in the past yet she also sees them regularly and socializes with them which I have always found strange. She has slept around in our relationship and I keep hearing about other sexual adventures before I knew her which make me question everything she has told me. I want the out. Up until now I have been an emotional doormat, for everyone. I want out of that life. I want a life.