( My Experience ) Before 2019 - I was looking for female approval

  • I got used in all three relationships I was in for money and food

  • I commented nice things on girls instagrams only to come to school for them to call me thirsty.

  • I thought all women were pure and that they didn't know what they were doing and that they only acted like that because of their hormones.

  • I got accused of trying to kill a girl because she said I was ugly and I made her cry afterwards. I got investigated by the police at school. Rumors spread that I was gonna shoot up the school. People (mainly girls) came up to me and asked me if i was "cool" with them

  • I was a walking female utility and put girls first before me.

  • Females made fun of me for not being one of their options.

After 2019

  • Focused on myself only. Went from all Ds to all As. And was most improved student of the year.
  • Found my masculinity. Figured out who the fuck I was. Eliminated all the lies I believed about women/society.
  • Brought snacks to school. Didn't share them. Girls said I was "mean" and "arrogant" even though they were like that towards my a whole year.
  • I refused to give up my seats, hold doors open, give them compliments, and share my opinions with everyone.
  • I ghosted everyone who disrespected me the year before
  • slept longer. Grew taller. Stopped masturbating for a few months. Travelled. Worked and saved. Money for college. And became one of the best Wide receivers in the state over the past season.
  • girl that accused me of trying to kill her actually friend requested me on Facebook that summer. Said she like me and felt that accusing me of trying to kill her would get me to talk to her. I reported her to the police. Trial starts on the 15th.