Long story short as I posted some time ago I am starting my life from absolute scratch. And I do mean ground. ZERO. I have been living with my parents for 6 months now. I am 30 (yes, I know) but I moved out (abroad) when I was 17 and have LITERALLY paid for every-single-fucking thing ever.

Ever sock, every pan, every holiday. I have made and lost tons of fo money. I have taught myself many valuable skills and things, won competitions, helped people, you name it. And you want to know what the first thing is my mom told me when I moved back in? 'I am ashamed of you being my son'.

Yea, thanks mom.

Unfuckingbelievable. I get it, I am not in a goodplace right now. But to me it just shows again that NOBODY gives an ass about you when you are down. Nobody. Never forget that. I certainly wont.