Really could use some advise on this one. I posted a couple times before after dealing with oneitis for a coworker, Candy. I was originally going to go no contact but that wasn't really possible since we work less than 10 feet from each other. I stopped all outside of work communication, removed her from social media, etc. My biggest issue is my frame folding like a paper towel when she comes around.

I'm lifting, eating right, dressing better, and actively trying to interact with more women. Thing is that where I work I get an absurd amount of down time and it seems everytime she talks to me my hamster goes into light speed trying to hold on to something that never existed in the first place. It feels week and I hate it. I'm currently looking for a new job but in the meantime it's difficult to keep from turning blue.

I'm improving myself and even though things with the wife aren't really getting better I'm not really concerned with that. Just focusing on reaching my goals and becoming the best version of myself I can be, but being so beta for so long is making the journey so much easier to stray from.

Any advise or thoughts would be appreciated, hell even if someone wants to just PM me from time to time to tell me to quit being a bitch I'll take it I just need something.