I DID IT!

Another update

The other day my sister was trying to convince me not to go to a group home & that I can live with her because “she’s changed”. She told me that my grandma, aunt & uncle doesn’t like me & they’re mean to me without me realizing because of my autism so mean that she was “shocked” when they said something to me that she didn’t remember what it was other than it was really mean and she was surprised they said it so casually. My grandma is mean to me but my aunt & uncle they’re not they’re the only ones in my family I kind of like/trust. Then she told me that apparently something bad happent a couple years ago, that my aunt falsely claimt my dad tryt to rape her at knifepoint and said that all military men are evil, and that my aunt told my grandma and my grandma sided with my aunt so these groups of my family (mom dad sister vs aunt uncle grandma) hated each other and avoid talking to each other since and also part of why they don’t like me.

Ok that fuckt me up in the head because my dad he’s got problems but I strongly think he’d never try to rape anyone. I’m also strongly think my aunt & uncle wouldn’t make false accusation & also say all military men are evil. My uncle (not aunt I know of) is against the military but he doesn’t hate the people in it, I know my family always hated him because of that (and that he’s a vegetarian, and he’s too weak and wears pink and other stuff they made fun of him in front of me a lot I always thought my family were assholes for it never agreed.) I can’t see either my uncle or aunt saying that.

Still fuckt with my head though so put judgement aside what ii did after I had to look through my grandmas messages to see if what my sister told me was true or not. There’s no evidenc it’s true, evidence against it hough, because my aunt & uncle were asking how they were doing & no wordings that they hated them it was normal stuff, I searcht all keywords there was nothing. So I’m confident now it’s just another fuckt up lie my mom & sster (& now grandma :() tell me to keep me isolated & depdent kn them

in the messages instead found my grandma & mom both saying lies about me & most important trying to sabotage me going to a group home. I thought it was too good to be true they’d be fine with me leaving yep. My grandma messaged my mom about how she talkt to my social worker about my grandpa, she’s trying to talk my social worker think the real issue is. I’m traumatized by mmy grandpa death and I just need to be put in a grief suppport group. She’s also trying to convince my mom & maybe doctors that my autism & stress is Side effects of a lifesaving medication im on (I guess so they’d take me off it). thankfully my mom told her again no he has autism he’s always been like this, we (me mom doctors) told her many times and she refuses listen to anything that’s not her preferred reality. She thinks she knows betters than everyone including all the doctors experts. She does that with everything every little thing every day it’s exhausting. Weird shit the lying to the point that if I didn’t know better my mom and grandma both are manipulative I’d think they’re suffering from delusions.

That was scary when I read those messages, thoughts of my escape plan is maybe ruint now because of this family, had a mental breakdown. I thought ok I have no choice now I have to email my Social workers everything, so I did it I wrote about the hoarding neglect abuse of me & other animals molestation. I sent the only pics I had as proof of my kittycat friend emaciated and dirty shortly before he dyed.

Yeah I did it and it was really scary it was my last resort and I had awful night last night but I DID IT AND ITHEY RE GOING TO HELP ME. She callt me today and she promised me she’s going to get me out, we see each other soon, Plan is made, It’s surreal, they believed me and took me seriously. Especially since I said it was my sister molesting me they took that seriously didn’t think I’m insane tha she can be sexually abhsive. It’s like a dream. She’s so kind to me she’s gonna keep us safe. We’re gonna be ok we’re safe with her it’s gonna be ok she’ll get us out of here. Everything’s gonna be ok. Im proud of myself, he wrote that emai it saved us, we’re gonna be ok. I’m so proud of myself I wanna give him. Big hug He is my hero. I never want him to leave me he’s protects me. I love him so much. We’re gonna be ok nkw. I hope you’re happy too. I’m so happy flappy hands. I’m really happy I can jump forever. But ok I should end this now so I can go watch the librarian. My friend is so cool isn’t he, he’s awesome I’m so proud of him I hope he’ proud of him too. I’m really happy. Ok byebye now 🦆