Update

My mother hasn’t punisht me , I’m alive, I’m safe

She brought me to the emergency room yesterday (i said ok) to be put in psych ward after I had a meltdown I broke some things I accidentally broke something precious to my grandma and that really upset her she cried

People were waiting 20+ hours so we left eventually she said she bring me tomorrow (today)

But first she callt the mental health thingy telling them I need urgent help and they said the bes t thing isn’t to go to er because of waiting times that they’ll see me in 1.5 weeks they made an appointment mother said they’re the ones who’ll put me in a group home. I’m probably going to a group home soon because I can’t live here anymore Because They can’t take care of me

1.5 weeks That’s how long they sleep me in the psych ward. But worse sensory hell there bad without my bunny daughter so this is better

She wants me to get a brainscan idk if they at the appointment can do quick referral for brainscan or if I have to wait for the other doctor next month for it I don’t get these things my mother does

I think probably have autistic catatonia that was misdiagnosed as depression & psychosis . It explains everything wrong with me, its caused by meds (Risperidone) I was on since a little kid & stress

They’ll find that out. Maybe it’s neither and I have worms in my brains. A nice person is helping me through this she’s very nice I’m glad she’s here for me

My mother is a lot nicer to me. Maybe she changed for real. Well it doesn’t matter much at this point as long as she gets me into a safe group home. I can take my bunny daughter with me

I’m gonna survive to the appointment by playing videogames and listening to my favourite music and eating sweet and sour tofu and rice and watching my plants grow