Been thinking about this a lot as I watch people like milo yiannopolous, Patrice O’Nea, Rich Cooper, etc. Why do I exist? Why am I female? My mind and needs aren’t female. I envy the freedom men have. Being a red pill sure helps that shit. I know many great women. But they just aren’t any better than they’re men. I am not great. I have tumors on my chest and a body made solely to please others. So am I just a “help mate” Was I made for the sole reason of pleasing guys amd boosting their egos. I am ashamed of women. They are so damn dependent and underdeveloped, it’s disgusting. I’d rather die alone than be a concubin. I hate them in fact.I’ve lost years of my childhood to this hate. Nights cold and unable to breathe. Knowing how lessened I am if I stand next to a guy. Knowing all I have to do is stand next to a pretty girl and all my good personality, thoughtfulness, education would be far better valued as a man. Maybe women need me to be great, maybe beign a guy wouldn’t have the same meaning as me. My loving nature would say yes. But my eggs say maybe rethink? Im only 18, in 12 years I’ll be a doctor. And in 12 years ill be alone, my value as a being I’ll have decreased just like that. Cant blame men. So why?

Why the fuck would anybody want this? This skin? This body? This gender. Can somebody help me.? I know I sound whiny, but I honestly understand why people become transgender by choice. I’d be living good, laughing with friends as a man. Being free to Laugh at inferior girls, filling bellies with sperm. Being awesome by virtue of birth. I just wish somebody would give me hope. Please, I’m taking off my lifespan