After getting called an “alpha widow” enough times on different subs, I was led to the red pill and then here. I really hope that I may be able to get some good advice here.

I’ve been stuck on my ex for 2 years. I can’t even imagine moving on from him- and trust me, I’ve tried. It’s like I’m mentally and physically disturbed by the very idea of getting with another man or even kissing them. In my mind, no one can compete with my ex. If I even find myself beginning to think that maybe I could like a guy, I notice some meaningless flaw and lose 100% interest.

These past 2 years have been miserable. Not a second goes by where he isn’t on my mind. It’s like I can’t even turn without seeing something that reminds me of him. And if I’m being honest with myself, it’s the sex that I miss most. Physically, he was perfection to me. And it’s not like he was some Adonis; he was attractive, sure, but not anything special or striking in the objective sense. Still, I can’t imagine being attracted to any man who isn’t him. I especially don’t think I can ever get “better” than him.

If this is indeed what being “alpha widowed” is, what can I do? I’m getting pretty sick of this.