[Serious]

Hi Ladies, long time lurked, first time poster.

Firstly I would like to say I am so glad this community exists, I think it is such a positive to have it on the internet. I am a Christian, and even though RPW ideology does not always match my Christian philosophy, it does a lot, so I have found the posts here very helpful. I think that men leading their wives out of love and women submitting to their husbands out of respect is that natural order of things.

I am a virgin and am saving myself for marriage, however thanks to the internet I have unfortunately lost my mental virginity having discovered lots of strange and bizarre f*tishes and things. This is something I somewhat regret but I have decided to take the mindset that if I cannot give my future spouse my mental innocence, then I might as well be as well researched as possible so I can perform my acts of service with confidence from the wedding night onwards; in for a penny in for a pound.

Although I cannot be certain (due to lack of experience) I think there are a bunch of k*nks I might have – but they are causing me some worry. My (suspected) k*nks are not to do with specific actions or body parts – which I think are more common with men – but to do with different dominance hierarchies of intimacy. (Submission and domination stuff)

I am all for wives submitting to their husbands in day-to-day life, but does that have to be maintained in the bedroom?

As far as I have found in dominance/submission play you can either be a dominant, submissive or a switch (someone who likes both). I think I am a switch as I seem to like the idea of both being very submissive with my future spouse, but also dominating as well. I have been reading up on the mirror variants of all the domination k*nks:

As well as unis*x degrading things:

• Bondage
• Begging
• Peeing on/in each other
• Impact play (smacking/slapping/choking/hair pulling)

I like the idea of doing all of them but I am worried as that would involve reversing dominance roles from the norm. I have read different opinions from different people who say that they either think such intimate relationships can work or cannot. Those that seem to say they can work do not seem to be red-pilled though so I am wondering if being a switch is compatible with Red Pill ideology?

I have read comments from women who had husbands who wanted to be pegged and they found that it emasculated them in their eyes and causes them to loose respect for them. However I have also read comments from women (who were Christians) who were very enthusiastic about pegging as it put their husbands in positions of complete trust and vulnerability and allowed them to receive the surrender of their husbands and understand how great that must make their husbands feel when they do it for them.

So what do you lot think? Would having a standard Red Pill relationship outside the bedroom be ruined by a switch relationship inside the bedroom? Would the woman lose respect for her Captain as he is emasculated in her eyes, and would the Captain be put off his First-Mate from seeing her being so dominant and controlling?

And if it is fine, how would I go about finding someone who wants to marry a switch?

I really am a novice in this area so please be kind to me. Thank you for any help or advice offered.

God bless you all.