So I've been single about a year now. Have had sex maybe 5 times within the year, I'm a busy man with work. So right now, I don't know if it's the season or what, but I'm feeling lonely. I'm introverted but I've been ticking all the boxes - I work out, work hard at my job, have friends, eat right take in literature etc... but I miss companionship. Bottom line.

I feel red pill has changed me to be an interviewer of women with really strict criteria. I can't have fun with them because I need to find out if they're loyal, I can't be kind to them because I need to find out if they can be abusive, I can't talk about anything personal because I need to find out if they are self-sufficient and self-sustainable. These things they've made me into a serious person. Yeah sure I can go out a get a couple one nights stand but I'm not doing that for another year, there's a fucking hollowness to it, a connection needs to happen.

So right now I don't know what the hell to do, I feel like I've sailed out in a boat and it's foggy and the map says I'm on path but it's just a fucking map that someone said it was a good map. Does anyone else feel like this.