I’m asking this after a recent discussion in another sort of similar post.

I work at a big company, my dad is a manager and the girl’s dad is the owner.

She is in a relationship but ever since we connected eyes, I could feel the sexual urge to fuck her, but that’s exactly when I stumbled upon this place. I read and read a lot and I gathered that I should not move forward with this. I feel like she could or could’ve been my soul mate and I hesitated too much and feel like I let her slip.

Now she is flirting with other guys and it’s pretty obvious (to me). The way she flirted with me, is the same way she’s flirting with the other I think. This may contribute to me losing my frame (it just feels weird/anxiety), I guess it’s the fear of someone else living the life I wanted. I mean who wouldn’t want to fuck and be with her? By the way, she is in no way 10/10 but definitely cute.

She did whatever she could to come near me, see me but we never really talked because I am too much of a pussy. I feared getting the power over her would turn me into a bad person since indirectly everyone at the company would treat me differently. I would also hear people talking about the fact that she either cheated on her bf, or I stole her from her man but why the fuck do or did I care about what others think? I also thought what her dad would say since he literally works there too.

I am pretty popular at the company and since she didn’t get my validation, she is looking from somewhere else I suppose. I didn’t want to use my “clout” to do this.

My dad is successful and I’m trying to replicate his sauce, for the part 3 years of me working here, I have made 6 figures a year on average.

I just feel bad that I isolated her and decided to be so money focused. I had my goals of buying a house and car and while I’m almost there, I’m not truly satisfied. My family is pretty well off, but nowhere near generational wealth. My goal is to solidify that for my future generations but what if this girl came in my life to serve that purpose and more?

This post exposes my vulnerability but in order for me to understand this to a greater depth and from other minds, I have to be honest. Please be as real as possible and if there’s anything someone can share. Despite my above average looks, money or whatever I am secure and don’t have a lot of women in life. Sort of like a late bloomer?