I’ve been lurking on this forum for quite some time, and just recently decided to sign up. This is my first post, but I wanted to say how much TRP and the suggested reading list changed my perspective.

I’m 46, divorced, no kids, and was blue-pilled most of my life. I was stupid enough to get married when I was 21 to a 31yo woman with 3 kids from a previous marriage. (DO NOT EVER ATTEMPT!) I thought I was in love, but it was all about the sex. In the beginning, when we were dating, it was off the wall sex 4-5 times a week, 2-3 times a day. (She was setting the trap after riding the CC and looking for a beta-provider.) After we married, and all moved in together, it was a struggle to even get sex once or twice a month. But, being the beta that I was, I figured “true love” was more important than physical love.

I wanted to be like my parents (still married after 49 years!), and decided that I would do the right thing and stay with this woman until death. Thus began a 23 year rollercoaster of fights, bankruptcy, alcoholism, anti-depressants, a couple of nights in jail, raising another man’s children, and a suicide attempt.I was “A Nice Guy” as described in the book “No More Mr. Nice Guy”. I was trying to do what I thought was “the right thing”, but inside I was miserable, addicted to alcohol, porn and masturbation. After my suicide attempt I started taking a new anti-depressant (Viibryd - if it matters) that had a very odd effect. It took away emotions little by little. First rage, then anger, then sadness, then laughter, then contentment, and finally took away what I thought was love. I was left with nothing but pure logic.

This was about 4 years ago. Along this same time I discovered MGTOW, and was watching a lot of Sandman videos. It’s like my eyes were opened for the first time. I started changing the way I saw women, and life in general. The marriage didn’t last long after that. We split up, and I was able to wean myself off of the pills. Guess what? Suddenly I was happy again! Imagine that.

So anyway, I decided to try MGTOW, and worked on myself, lost weight, improved my wardrobe, read a lot. After 9 months, I decided to try dating again. My first several attempts were miserable failures. I didn’t know how to approach women any more. One night, after one such failure, I was drinking a bottle of whiskey (alone, in the dark, like a man!) and stumbled across this TRP forum. I was intrigued, because I was at the point of swearing off women for good and going full monk-mode MGTOW.

TRP makes so much sense. I started reading the sidebar, I have several of the books on Audible, and have read quite a bit of the archives. A few months ago, I started trying again in the dating world, this time with the understanding and advice given here. What a difference! My confidence with women is higher than ever before, and I have had to block a few ladies on social media and my phone because they wanted the D so badly. (Read “Sex God Method”!)

I wish I had known these things as a younger man, but I am glad to have found them at this point in my life. I now have a few plates, and a good prospect for an LTR. All are at least 10 years younger than me. I know when I do get into an LTR - and maybe have kids - I will continue to use the principles I learned here to keep her in place and satisfied.

Anyway - I just wanted to say “Thank you” to all the mods for their hard work in creating and maintaining this life-changing site.You guys Rock.

Tl;dr “Middle aged guy finds MGTOW/TRP after lifetime of blue-pill hell, and is happy and optimistic about life again.”