Damn. Not sure how to kick this off. Haven't posted or lurked for the last 1.5 mos. Hurt my shoulder lifting in mid-March after going to the gym 6 days/week in the early AM from the first week of January.

That was the beginning of the slide back towards my old ways. Stopped hitting the gym (to heal - but then it just became the excuse I fed myself). Started sleeping in, eating worse, gradually let go of taking care of myself/being attractive. Kept the RP mentality (partway at least) and have continued to apply bits and pieces of RP wisdom and it's gone surprising well all things considered.

But I've slipped into certain dumb things like talking too much, complaining, and overall just not leading.

Coming back to this forum to assist in waking the fuck back up. Feel like my shoulder is ready to take some punishment back at the gym. This slide needs to end. So I'll end it.