Edit..I guess I should have given you all some stats.... I'm a 45m her 44 and married for 22 years. One daughter who is 16. I've been beta from the beginning. My father was and is beta. My mother divorced my father because he wasn't a very good provider. I have tried to be the exact opposite of him. I've been on the Red pill journey for about 6 months. Lost 50lbs in 2 years time by eating right and getting off my fat ass.

Victim puke ahead and partial field report.

So we're out for a dinner and drinks, just her and I. Just before we are about to leave the phone rings and it's my teenage daughter calling to tell my wife that the neighborhood lady came over (which is very unusual) and our little dog flipped out a bit her on the finger. My wife says that we need to call the neighbor to see what happened but she needs to go to the bathroom first.

She gets up and runs off to pee. Of course I now have a million things going through my mildly intoxicated brain. I pull out my phone and call the the neighbor lady's husband before DW get's back from pissing. He said not to worry and it was just a very minor thing.

Wife comes back from piss break and I inform her that I called. She is mad that I called before she got back. I didn't DEER. We leave and she say's she wants to stop and buy them a bottle of wine. We also buy another bottle for us. This is pretty routine on date/sex night.

When we get home we immediately go over to the neighbors house. The husband invites us in and ensures us that everything is fine. He explains that his wife was very rude to someone earlier in the day and thought it was me or another neighbor. Neighbor lady wasn't sure if it was me or another neighbor. (Neighbor lady is legally blind). He makes the comment that you two(me and the other neighbor) look nothing alike. ( I weigh about 150 and the other older weights 275 is fat and a lot older). Wife says, "yeah he's to skinny, he needs to gain some weight" to neighbor husband. She has been making these comments on and off for the last year or so. I've went from lard ass lazy gaming beta to being in the best shape of my life. Neighbor doesn't comment and immediately shows us his new massive wine cooler. I ask him if he's planning any parties for Halloween(they have several parties a year and we're new to the neighborhood) and that if he is we would love to come.

We leave and as we're pulling in the driveway DW says she would love to go a Halloween party and she would gladly dress up in a slutty costume for the chance to go but would NOT for me. I say nothing. I go inside, jump in the shower. Usually after we've been out we end the night with SGM sex. I come out after the shower and I overheard her say to my daughter that she's very tired, sleepy, and going to bed. I come out and say "night night" and start to my bedroom in a happy voice. (We sleep separately). Former Beta me would have been begging, DEERING, pouting, and butthurt because of no sex. I act like everything is great head to bed just as I remember that I hadn't ironed my shirt for the next morning. So I go iron and she comes in and starts shit testing me. I STFU and tell her I've changed my mind, I'm going to the gym.

I leave and the texts start. "You've already took a shower, those machines are dirty". "You've had to much to drink, you'll drop those weights on yourself" "You do what ever makes you happy" I replied with "OK" and go work out. I come home and go straight to bed and sleep like a baby.

Next day I go to work and she (she is a sahm) doesn't get out of bed. Sends me a very long text about how I disrespected her by calling before she go out of the pisser after dinner. I caused her a lot of emotional damage which resulted in her not being able to get out of bed because she hadn't slept. She also has a bad case of tendonitis in her foot. She wanted an answer as to why I did that. I replied with "I completely agree, I should have waited till you got back from the bathroom."

Later that evening after we had pizzas, which she ate in bed, I sent her a text and told her I was going for a walk. She replied with "did you have a bad day". I replied, no I had a good day.

Upon returning, beta fag me came back to life. I sent her a text telling her my feel feels and that I didn't appreciate the two comments about her wanting to dress like a slut in order to go to the party and also how I felt she demeaning me Infront of others by calling me skinny. She's done this several times since I've been increasing my smv. She replied back with the slut remark was a joke and that she didn't realize she was demeaning me and she wouldn't do it again. She also asked I I would have felt if she had called while I was in the bathroom. I replied with ok. We didn't speak the rest of the evening.

Here's what I'm doing. I'm lifting and increasing my SMV. I'm reading and honing my red pill axe. I've stopped DEERing and the word sorry is no longer in my vocabulary. I'm stfu and passing shit tests a little better. I'm very OI. I could next her today and be just as happy, there's tons of pussy out there and lots of women that would push her Infront of a train to be in her shoes. Sex is not as frequent as a I want. She had a severe yeast infection and PMS last month. I dgaf and will never beg for sex again as long as I live. When we do have sex it's pretty good with SGM but not frequent enough. She knows I'm not happy with this but I dgaf. I can't negotiate desire, I can only improve.

I have a long way to go. My SMV is getting higher, her's is not. I'm reading and rereading. The hardest thing for me is passing shit tests. I suck at AA and AM. I guess practice will make perfect.

Please unload on me. I need to be slapped.