I feel like this is a side effect of understanding TRP. Once you know the nature it disgusts you and that it is unchangeable. My plateitis came out to my party, though I could feel some distance since I blew her off Saturday. I didn't pay particularly close attention to her at the outset..she may still have been salty.

Regardless she mirrored a lot I was saying and doing and constantly tried to tease me back very half assedly. The only shit test I got was "you're old now" being that it was my birthday. I got some unintentional social proof from my bandmates wife and a female friend I invited who's openly interested; she asked me to go to the theater Friday night right in front of main plate, didn't see her reaction, but she did say "you didn't tell me about her" and asked questions. I smiled internally at what was going on. My other two prospectiplates didn't make it otherwise this wouldve been a different story. An otherwise positive interaction, but the length of association with this plate makes me very jaded.

I sent her off for the night and when I went to setup for an aggressive makeout she broke off with just a solid kiss and said happy birthday. I wasn't outwardly effected but I was one, disappointed (yes even with outcome independence) and two I could see my former effortless mastery of this girl had less grip. I shouldn't care, but it did launch me a bit back into the anger phase, again thanks to length of association... Will it ever end? Do I just need more plates to give less of a fuck? My biggest gripe with any situation is feeling like stepping backward and rebuild tension and excitement. It is tiring and personally, I can't stand it even when it comes effortless to my personality.