Long story short, I was/am raised to be the ultimate blue piller. Raised by an over-bearing feminist mother, sent to all the right schools. Mother was part of the feminist movement and an ardent catholic, father is a good man but an alcoholic and largely absent from my life. Grew up with no real father figure in my life. Grew up being raised to treat women with more than respect -- but actual sub-servience. I guess like, my mother would slap me or leave me at stores, even on Christmas eve once. I was diagnosed with minor aspergers as a kid, but later that diagonsis was reversed.

I date one girl, a friend that I met through some church group. She dumps me weeks later and says point-blank that she doesn't find me attractive and thinks I am in her words unmanly. I snap, and leave that social group. Figure out she had been fucking my roommate, an unemployed guy I had seen as no threat. He shows up with his friends and they kick my ass. I could not believe a woman had cheated on me for this guy that wasn't even 6 feet tall, and had no job and just played xbox and did drugs all the time.

Decide to leave the country and move to Japan, and I do some software engineering out there. Take some martial arts, learn to use a sword and get back in touch with my masculine side for around 5 years. I learn a decent level of Japanese, and ultimately my visa is close to expiring. While in Japan, I keep true to "my morals" and date only one woman, a very beautiful half girl that did modeling and spoke native German and English, for the time I was there. We get engaged, but she dies in a bad situation. I move back to America.

The contrast in women is immediately apparent to me. American women act less feminine, far more entitled and just generally don't take care of the way they look. But what happened? I nearly went insane and when I left the shadows from Japan after tending to my mental injuries, the beautiful women and peaceful society were gone.

Something called the Obama government has replaced it, a pathetic blue pill ideology that tells women it's OK to be fat, spoiled and misbehaved. Their behavior encouraged by legions of white knights and beta chumps, pussy pedestalizing and supplicating men looking for an easy way out. Popular culture telling women it's beautiful to be fat -- even this thing called "fat shaming".

Now I return here, and I read the red pill literature. I am to believe I wasted my 20s improving myself, working out like a religion, wandering the god damn earth, learning Japanese language and that I have been waiting for the right woman, saving myself as a laughable 30 year old virgin -- for less than nothing? So that she dies and I am left instead here, alone, in this utterly defective culture of absurd self-entitlement and rampant obesity? Ridiculous, don't make me laugh

Let's say you guys are right, and most women are hypergamous. What if a man doesn't want to spin plates and doesn't care about casual sex? I mean, I see the allure of it and had plenty of opportunities as a semi-successful white guy in corporate Tokyo. I'm almost 6' 1'' and probably average looks, except that I work out a lot. And now I make 6 figures in middle America, double the median income where I live at age 30. All I am saying is that to me, American women just aren't cutting it. The ones that are physically up to par, are not mentally or emotionally up to par for a LTR. They are absurd parodies of what a woman should be -- slutty, outspoken, misbehaved, hypergamous even. Shit, you're right TRP. Is this what reality is? Is this just always how bad America and the women here have always been?

So what does a man do? I don't want to live in this kind of world, where women are like this. Are American women just either too fat and ugly or are just promiscuous, manipulative hypergamous worthless two-faced duplicitous sluts? What the hell happened in the years I was gone -- I mean they blew it up. They fucking blew it up.

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I am not trolling, I just led a very sheltered life and had little experience with women and relationships until my late 20s.