I'm a single male who lost his virginity at 28 YO. Raised in a tough religious culture, that look down on women and have some positive masculinity shit. Jordan Peterson was appealing to me. So that what paved the path for redpill to me.

I lift 200+ squats and deadlift. Play martial arts and have a successful career. I hooked up with someone and had sex. I hate it, and now after approaching girls, I don't want to close because of that CPTSD. But I wanted to ask what should I do to improve myself and enjoy sex more? Or is it just so overrated in a mind of porn expectations over 28 years of virginity?

I was reading "the game by Neil Strauss " and I felt my sex experience was the same as Extramask with Wideface:

I, Extramask, redpillm, have f-closed a girl for the first time—eliminating my virgin status

She had big boobs and attracted to me, which made me horny

I had her on top. I had always fantasized about this. So she was on top of
me and I was thinking, "Holy shit, this fucking hurts. My cock is gonna fucking
snap off.

Her vag was big and wet, I hated the former but the latter made the shit easier for me

I got her into doggy-style position.

Which was the only lovely thing in my experience. I had her change positions multiple time, like I wanted to explore. It was like all you can fuck buffet, ass vag and mouth. But..

It was horrible, just like the sex.

We did it again the next day, and in the morning. I wanted to find what I am missing, but..

I was bored out of my mind during this whole experience. I was pretty disappointed. LOL

I hated her body type in women. I questioned myself if I was gay, but I propably was a faggot

tl;dr

I stuck my junk in a chick. I lost my virginity. The sex was
horrible. I felt a bit dirty and used after the act.