My ex and I broke up in a disastrous way.

I finally built a spine strong enough to break up with my Bipolar, borderline personality, lying cheating ex

But then she messaged me that she wanted to talk. And I talked.

The talk became an argument where she admitted she fucked my mortal enemy (she had already cheated on me several times but I forgave her each time) and I blew up. I pushed her away. She then called the police on me and had me arrested.

I was in jail for a week and when I got out I message her. And she tells me she got married.

1 week I'm gone and she gets married.

In response I go on a hooker fucking spree.

I fucked 30 hookers in the span of 2 months.

And in the end, I still feel like I miss her, that I love her, that I want her back.

I think about her almost daily

Why do men have this flaw, where we desire a certain women even if they betray and hurt us?

I just wanna forget about her. I just want to move on like how she did.

Can someone help me?