Just had a breakup and I miss her. It doesn't matter how much semen I blow into new girls, I miss her.

I know I'll get over this and find someone else but then I feel like I'm stuck in a loop. This feels like groundhog day. I've been here before.

Is there an end game?

Is it even possible to find a woman that will love me how I want and will stay loyal to me until death?

I've been through multiple LTR breakups, always having to do with cheating on her end. I still have ONS and plates here and there as the years progress and some of them have boyfriends which just further cements my dread of my future.

Are there any older red pillers that can attest that there is an end game? That there is some sort of hope?

TL;DR

Is there an end game to TRP that involves an LTR? Any older red pillers that can give their outlook on TRP past a mans prime? Are there any good women out there who won't cheat? And if the answer is no to all of these, then what the fuck am I doing? What the fuck are WE doing? If TRP has no older folks who believe and apply the principals, then what are any of us doing if our fate is to abandon TRP at some point?

Thanks.