Good night everyone

Not sure its the right place

I've came out of a really long situation

Long story short. I'm 24, tall and good looking

I loved a girl since 12th grade, and only told her recently , After surgery to remove a tumour

She rejected me, It was a big shock and with the medications I took I became even more depressed and emotionally unstable

She knows everything I've done and I sent her pics of my suicide attempt. Now I've finally managed to get rid of that stuff

Is there any way I can change her perception of me

I always get a bit of attention from girls, but I want to be with that one.

Other girls just don't make me feel like she feels