I've worked seriously on my inner game. I interpret life situations and others' reactions positively, I'm starting to consider others' perceptions less, I allow myself to walk confidently without being ashamed of standing out or intimidating others, I don't try to tone down myself out of fear of others because I know I deserve to exist etc. It's to the point where even at the gym, I'm huffing and puffing and being loud, but idgaf anymore. I have this thing where naturally, my chest puffs out, I walk straight like I'm in the military, and I'm a bit intimidating. It's not on purpose, it just happens naturally, even when I work out alone. Now, I just let go. I exist like that when the gym is busy, around other people, whereas before, I'd try to make myself less intimidating and be self-conscious about it. What's dope is now, if I walk past a girl and she jolts or over-reacts, I don't take that personally and interpret it as her being self-conscious in the gym, and that being her problem, rather than me being some weirdo that everyone is uncomfortable with. So it's like fuck it.

I've also worked on outer game. I'm ripped af now, and my body is like a slim male model. I'm still average looking at best in the face, but this is best hairstyle I've had yet. I also wear contacts, and my clothing fits. I actually wear normal clothes now, rather than sweatpants. I'm always smelling good, and all that other good stuff.

So these two things have been worked on and now I'm faced with the approaching situation. Social circle game will not lead me to my desired end goal. I want to be confident in knowing I can approach without being spoon fed by passively waiting for "a lucky break". That's literally some delusional passive shit. Successful people don't do that shit. But I'm also aware that if I go this cold approach route, I have zero parenting, family, or life experience in this domain. I'm socially alright, but I'm not an extrovert either. I'm shit at expressing myself sexually. But it's like I know I'll get better at if I do it.

The real problem with going this route is that because of my lack of any knowledge (beyond theory which goes right out the window for a while), I can only approach like a straight up autist. Like I have the balls to approach a girl on the bus without any social calibration like someone with asbergers. Just straight up start a conversation and her being confused half-way like "how did this end up happening?". I don't have asbergers, but I can go to that extent if I want to improve. And it's like I don't know what the end results and casualties of that will be. Like will I have to leave my city in the end? I might, like I'm not even fucking with you. I'm seriously willing to go up to every legal girl in my city and approach, so I can get better at this shit. Idgaf about closing, but I'll do it for the experience and skill of it. I don't care about the ego aspect of this, but if I commit myself to something, then I'm commiting to it. Like maybe some of you can relate, and maybe some of you won't get it. Like I will literally turn into a fucking sociopath who will consider no one else in the pursuit of learning this. I consider myself an empathetic person, but to improve at this, I will have to let that shit go because it's holding me back. In the pursuit I will make people feel cringe beyond bearable emotional levels. I will make people uncomfortable af. There's this Todd V video of "approaching in a way that you'd be able to share with your family about it". But it's like my family is religious, so there's no way I'd be able to share this shit with anyone. Because if I'm going to learn it, I'll go to the deep end of it, and keep tight lipped until I can fucking slay. Until her and her grandma are on speed dial. I'm being extra here but you get the point. Has anyone had to reach this point to start approaching? Did you regret it?