Hi everyone, this will be a bit broad so sorry if this bores you. Anyway, so the reason I'm posting this is because today it hit me: I'm absolutely shit at talking to girls. I've been into pickup, seduction (whatever you want to call it) for about a year and a half now and at first felt like I was really progressing. I was getting numbers, getting makeouts, approaching who ever I felt like and just having lots of fucking fun. For about half a year I was doing stuff I thought I could never even attempt. I would mostly go out with one of my friends and we would have a great time, every time. But he left for exchange to Germany and I lost the momentum. I went to visit him for a month and while there I wasn't approaching like I did before, but would talk to people at bars, clubs and parties. I met some great people, some who were great girls, but of course I had to return. After returning home I couldn't get over how much I love Germany (and still haven't) and I completely stopped approaching. It's just not the same anymore, but my friend returned as well and we told ourselves and each other that we can't make excuses any more. So this semester we have tried getting back into it. He's definitely made more of an effort than I have, but I've been trying.

So now onto what I've been up to. I've been trying to be as social and friendly as possible to anyone I meet, and one of those is a girl in my class. At first I thought I was doing good, until today. To summarize, I made a joke which she interpreted literally and I'm pretty sure she doesn't want to see me anymore. I didn't think I did bad initially but later having spoke to her I could tell she was pissed. That's the moment I realized I'm absolutely shit at this. I feel like everything I've read and applied so far is meaningless. I want to get better but I am so lost as to how I can get back into it. Common advice would be "just do it, just approach" but I don't have any motivation for that. In between assignments and classes, all I want to do is read books and escape in their worlds or day dream about returning to Germany. It's pathetic but I don't know what to do (this is as far as can remember, my first time admitting this to anyone including myself, so I guess that's a first step) . I don't expect anyone to reply, but if you do then I truly appreciate it. So.... what now?

*Thankyou everyone for the replies. It's good to receive feedback. I feel some are misunderstanding my post and thinking I've lost my confidence. I'll just make it clear that this wasn't a confidence destroying moment but rather an awakening which has made me want to "rebuild" myself. I've been reading all the comments so do keep them coming. Thanks everyone :)