Had a few dates with one girl and got oneitis hard. Then she ended things and said she never found me attractive, and laughed when i asked if she found me sexually attractive.

Since then I’ve worked on myself and developed new interests/confidence (not with women but with life in general). My friends literally saw me after 3 months of self improvement and said “wow you’re looking so much better now”. I admit I came across as very goofy and needy. EXTREMELY needy. Like a gift after the first date levels of needy and extremely simpy texts about how I’m surprised that she finds me good looking etc.

She was probably the hottest girl I can get. I have been with 5 women afterwards but they’re all from OLD so they’re okay (and some have really nice personalities), but not as pretty and fun as the first girl. I get 1-2 likes per week from girls who are 7/10+

I don’t approach women in real life because hearing the words “i was never attracted to you” from a girl you thought could be the one, will burn your soul for years.

Can excessive masturbation just numb my sex drive? Or a pill that basically stops me from having any sexual desires? Thinking oestrogen might do the trick.

Nothing will humble you more than being a placeholder for a more attractive man.