I'm a fucking psycho. I can approach any girl and start up a conversation and be charming. But it never works because I totally lack any kind of experience with the later stage. It's that moment when you go from sitting down at a table together to having sex. Totally foreign to me. That moment when you go from handshakes and hugs to kissing her. Never done that before.

And it shows, man it shows. Why does everyone act like approaching is the hard part?

The hard part is being confident when you've never been on a date and you're talking to girl who's fucked 20 guys. THATS the fucking hard part.

God I hate so bad those dumb fucks who say you need to add value before you attract girls. As if I'm a 500 pound computer Cheetoh man. There are some moments and social circles where I'm THE man. Do you get that? But I'm fundamentally a broken man because I can't get past my sexual fear, shame and inadequacy. The only way I really could is by having sex with someone I don't think I could have sex with. And that happens all the time for some of you.

What you guys don't understand is that game isn't about following a checklist: lift read models approach or some similar cock suckery. LIFE isn't fair. There are kids born orphans without limbs, what's your plan for them, lift, models and approach? I love that example because it shows how shallow and first world the entire pickup community is. But it doesn't have to be that serious you think everyone can get jacked by lifting weights? They've done studies. Some people LOST muscle on the same training program where others gained it, and the only culprit was genetics and microbiome. Anderson Silva looks like your dad and he spends most of the day physically training.

This shit wouldn't fucking work if everyone could do it. Not everyone is supposed to get laid by 10s.

I'm NOT trying to get every girl. I just want to be able to convert those special opportunities where a girl shows interest in me. Because I'll never be 6'3 white and jacked. But I am a deeper human being in every way that really matters.

You understand why I want this? It's not because I'm worthy of love and affection because cut the bullshit none of us are. If those kids have no one then we don't deserve it more than them. The reason I want this is because of pure selfish desire. And because I want to share my best, most humane, kind and altruistic side with the world and I CANNOT fucking do that while sexual inadequAcy and the pointless trivilaty of pussy is WASTING MY TIME AND ENERGIES.