I came across TRP at the worst time in my life .. right in the middle of moving to a new city to start a new life centered around “blue pill” prospects.

My entire identity has been shattered and I don’t know how to deal with it. I want to hate women and I have never hated women. I’m paranoid that they are all out to get me and intimacy is the only thing I have ever desired.

In my early twenties I did the “spinning plates” thing long before TRP. I don’t know how many women I slept with, quite frankly I lost count, but I remember how sad, loney, disgusting and miserable I felt. I spent years to heal from the emotional issues that influenced that sort of womanizing behavior and it was the perfect point in my consciousness for TRP to latch on. It told me that suddenly all of that work and healing is meaningless. Society is at fault for shaming me away from my natural alpha nature. Intimacy is something that will never be achieved without catastrophic consequences. My therapist, friends, men’s group, even my own mother and father are now in question.

I’m really having a hard time dealing with it.