Hey All,

I posted here previously about a guy (21M) I (20F) was seeing that I ended things with. We only saw eachother for a month and a half but I know it was the right decision to drop him but I just don't know why I miss him so much. I'm trying to get to the bottom of why and the main reason is missing the affection I got from him but i dont know, I still feel like I also might just miss the actual guy. Its so crazy because he truly isnt s***, like i've dated guys that treated me better and have gotten over them way faster, but all the words he told me about being important to him, thinking he'll fall in love with me and everything is really messing me up.

Also, I feel like I care about him alot and his well being.He told me personal struggles he goes through and I just keep feeling like I want to make sure he's happy and okay.

I know he wasn't the right guy for me and he's done things that made my feel sick in my gut but my brain keeps idealizing him like no tomorrow to a point where it doesn't care what he's done. My brain just wants him back.

I've tried talking to other guys but I just don't find anyone appealing.

I did sleep with him early on (yikes I know) so I don't, know maybe that's why? Because I was barely attracted to him when I first met him and barely even wanted to kiss him :/

How do I get this out of my system? I'm so tired of this.