Hi everybody, first i wanna thank everybody for the advices and all the positive energy in this sub, it helped me a lot to finally open my eyes to a lot of things that i didn’t wanna see in the past.

Three months ago my almost two years relationship with a narcissist nvm finally finish, I’m really glad it did because more time with him and i would feel like i lose myself. It was the classic narc that love bombed me at the beginning since it was my first serious relationship i was very naive, innocent plus my people pleasing habit (pickmeisha if you will) that i finally treated.

All “good “in the first months but now that i see there were s lot of red flags like love bombing, taking bad about exs, directly telling me his past problems to make me feel empathy for him, daddy issues, 50/50 always since first date (yes i know i was really naive but no anymore)

In the first year the pandemic hit in my country so we went into lockdown for almost eight months, in that time a lot of problems flourish like he yelled at me once just for a game and i hung up the phone, this lvm liking whores on ig not even famous tho, i pointed out everything with respect and tell my feelings like i thought it was correct, all for nothing because men like these don’t change like never, i should leave but sll these just talk your feelings and figure it out is pretty common (libfem ideology and the society)

Jumping to the end this was nothing, he started to blame me for discussions just because i answered to his bullshit, wanting me to change many things that in the past he said he love, didn’t care sbout my personal problems and tried to make me feel guilty for it (like just his problems matter) a lot of toxic bullshit that thanks god didn’t buy because until the last day i showed my disgust talking or crying but never normalize all of these.

He broked up the relationship via sms (girl i💀) and he never had the balls to telling me all the shit he said to my face, literally blaming me and washing his hands, i said that i wsnt the same thing, never begged him to stay because i was planning to broke up but in person like mature people, i was really pissed off that he did that, pass a hard time snd one day i told him too meet up because i wsnted to tell my part he said no so it was my final attemp, i send him all i think about him and blocked him everywhere and forever.

In these months i started my journey to find myself again, feeling comfortable with me, being with my friends and family, do all the things that i love and learn new ones, throw all the stuff and stupid comments he made sbout me in the trash and feeling myself, i know is a long journey but i feel like I’m getting somewhere, feeling s lot better after talking with my friends and therapist, i know that i shouldn’t let him stay in my life all that time, i forgive myself, learn and still learning to not come back to any of that old ways snd he’s an asshole that hsve it way worse in every aspect.

The next year i’ll graduate of law school, i started following my dreams and looking forward to make the truth (make the impossible, possible)

The last thing i wanna say is thank you to every one for this space, it feels like home with a lot of inspiring women that went trough a lot of worse stuff snd kept being strong. It gets better and I’m looking forward to it, i hope that if you are in a situation like this you can get out find yourself and help in your family or friends. 💕