I ruined everything, Without TRP I was already an alpha. In the army getting ready to go to Special Forces selection. I was a leader among my friends. I got divorce raped by my first wife and recovered very well but apparently didn’t learn shit. I put together an impossible list of qualifications for wife number two. The three weeks after my divorce I met a girl first date I knew I was fucked. She met every qualification and then some. We got married had kids and she went from an RN to getting her doctorate and nurse practitioner and makes more money than me. She got plastic surgery, boobs, butt, tummy, the works. I never got to selection I got cancer and was discharged. So now I am on disability and she kicked me to the curb. After reading here a ton I realized that after my cancer I went totally Beta. She lost interest and has fucked who knows how many other guys in the last few months. I have to hire an attorney to get time with my kids and hopefully spousal support. I chased and chased her for the last few years like a little bitch. I had stopped working out and we moved for her job. I stayed in the house and had no friends, totally codependent. I got really depressed and thought about just quitting on life. When I found TRP and realized how and why I fucked this up. I went back to the gym and in the last 6 months I have lost 40 pounds. I am getting my muscle tone back. Reenrolled in college. I feel better than I have in 10 years. My life is amazing now with one exception, I love this woman we were married 12 years. I have tried to turn that off but I cant. She pulled random guys out of a club and fucked them drove 3 hours to fuck another guy and I don’t even care. I bought the whole beta true love lie and I can’t get that shit out of my head I love this woman and I have had opportunity’s to close the deal with several girls and I cant do it. So I know I need to just protect myself best I can in court and next her. I just don’t know how to even begin to get past her. I love her unconditionally and I don’t know how to turn that stupid ass shit off.