Her leaving and the ultimate divorce has been nothing but a blessing to my endeavors and seeing things I've wanted become reality.

However material things can't and will never fill the void of love and companionship.

After that marriage i've sworn to not be remarried and I think this makes it difficult to be in the dating pool, along with the fact that I dont go out to meet anyone new.

I do activities alone but I miss the joy of sharing that with someone, even a friend.

Even thou i've said to myself this is how it is and accept it but Im human and emotions and feelings fuck me over.

I work from home and im the only employee as its a small company. Many think im lucky but its frustrating and sad a lot of the time. Im really glad to be home but wish I had a coworker at least.