Hey everyone. I've been reading for a bit and made this account because I'm going crazy with this situation. A new girl coworker started at my job last year. I instantly fell in love with her beautiful looks and personality. We were friendly and spoke here and there but nothing crazy. A few months in I noticed she was hanging out more and more with another coworker. After about 2 months of that observation she all of a sudden started talking to me more and asking me personal questions. I took that as an opportunity to ask her out. She resisted slightly but agreed when I asked her again a few days later.

The first time we went out everything went great or so I thought. We had dinner and had a nice conversation. We both enjoyed ourselves and I drove her home. When I parked in front of her house she got extremely nervous and rushed to grab her things. I took it in stride and told her do I get a kiss goodbye? She said yeah ok! and ran out the door. I thought to myself ok well I guess that didn't go as well as I thought and just proceeded to move on. She texted me 10 minutes later on the way home saying she had a great time. I responded dryly and she asked me why. I told her it was weird the way she acted and that it's ok if she wasn't interested. She said she was and that she was just nervous and that she'd love to go out again. I agreed.

Long story short we went out 3 more times and she behaved the same way until the 4th time where we hugged and ended up making out. After that we went out a couple more times escalating every time until she eventually came over and we had sex 3 times in one day.

After that we would go out and she would just stick to giving me blowjobs in the car because it's a small car and my house always has people in it. One day we got drunk and had the most cramped uncomfortable sex in the car.

During our getting to know each other I had mentioned that I thought she was into the other coworker and she swore to me that she liked him for his conversation and that they only tap kissed once. Looking back now I'm 100% sure it's bs.

After our 2 sexual encounters, she started to give excuses as to why she couldn't see me or come over when the house was empty. She had also mentioned that the other coworker had started messaging her again and wanted to start seeing her again. Eventually she started getting more and more disrespectful and flirtatious in front of my face with him and told me we couldn't do this anymore.

Looking back though I think she was still secretly seeing him this whole time. I made the mistake of getting more clingy and desperate the more she rejected me and eventually I confessed my love to her and she said I was making her uncomfortable and to only talk to her about work related things from now on. Obviously that destroyed me but I stopped speaking to her or even acknowledging her at work for about a week. Today she finally messaged me saying that she's sorry that she freaked out because I was too into her and if I could find it in my heart to forgive her. I told her to just let me be and that I regretted telling her all that desperate stuff that I told her. She tried to be funny and said she understood because of how amazing she was. I responded with an lol and that was the end of it.

My question to you guys is, how do I turn this around to the point where she can be sexually into me again? Hope you can help. Thanks in advance.