Hi everyone,

it's been a few months since I left TRP and I was pretty successful at identifying and healing from toxic TRP ideas so far. After leaving I was able to find new optimism and hope for my life.

However I still experience moments of crushing and very painful sadness from time to time. Every time that happens my mind starts making TRP look good to me. I've been able to convince myself that TRP is toxic each time, but I'm not sure if I can keep it up.

These moments are defined by hopelessness and a feeling of defeat from life. My current life meets all expectations of TRP and so as a result, I feel very hopeful because of the image they build. If you are what they want, you will gain everything to put it another way.

I know I could reach out to my friends but I'm simply too emotionally repressed for that, nor do I want to bother them frequently.

What are alternative and more healthy resources I can turn to in these moments? Do you experience this, if so, how do you cope? Do you distract yourself from the pain or do you sit with it?