i'm a short male. i have a micropenis, gyno, fem face that's hard to look at, small hands+wrists+feet. cannot afford surgeries right now, starting TRT soon-ish. already tried to improve myself in basically every possible way with no success. recently i've been thinking about if i should even bother anymore at all. maybe i should just try and overdose on copium so i can try and ignore the pain. need advice on if this is the right move and if so, what are some viable copes.