o my wife decided to leave me after 5 months of marriage. She said it was because of my alcohol use but she moved another man into my home less than a month after I left..

Im at a point in my life where I want to find love again... I'm a hopeless romantic lol I grew up watching Disney movies and they always had such good love stories and I want mine haha. I thought it was with her but I didn't know how unbelievably toxic she was until she kicked me out (most likely she was cheating but that's purely speculation)

I wouldnt say I'm here for advice but more to rant because I've thought about this so much over the past couple weeks and just need to share. I know I have a lot of rebuilding to do. I tried to win her back by showing her I was willing to work on my alcohol use by getting myself scheduled to go to rehab later this month. I lost my job during the separation because I took it really hard so I have a small part time one while I wait for treatment but I have plans for after it's over.

I lost everything during this separation and we aren't even divorced yet. I also coped 2 separate nights with drinking and I was homeless so I was drinking in my car and the police ended up pulling up to my car and charged me for an owi so I have to go through court for that, pay the fines, and roll around with a breathalyzer for 6 months and I feel that all this makes me look really bad. Undesirable to a woman.

Then I will also have to pay for an attorney or lawyer to sort out this divorce and child custody (my ex and I do not agree on custody. I want 50/50 she wants me to only have her on the weekend) she also threatens to withhold my child from me if I say or do something she doesn't like and we had bought a house near my parents because it is the only family we had (her mom died, step dad died and bio father is in prison) so I'm forced to drive pass our... Her house every time I go home now.

I see her and her new man outside with my kid and they always make it a point to smile and wave at me as a drive by and it's always a blow to the ego. Not even the ego it just makes me sick to my stomach. To think I was in love and then be tossed aside and mocked like this. It's disheartening.

Her new man tells me that I'm a deadbeat that should drown himself in a bottle because I ain't worth sh*t. I know none of that is true but it hurts to hear that because if she is okay with him saying that to me then most likely that's how who I thought was the love of my life talks about me behind my back. She was never a love and I think that hurts the most because I really tried my best

It also hurts to see how easy it was to move on. How easily replaceable I was. How my name is on everything and yet another man takes care of it all. That would probably be my ego talking but it is what it is. That's how I feel and I'm working through it.

I guess I'd like to find some hope or inspiration through this post. Your guys love after divorce stories. Maybe some feel good messages haha. I'm 22 and currently do every self improvement thing on the list. I work out, go to groups, go to church, show up to my job, read the bible, read other helpful books, take walks, focus on hygiene and self care, I frisbee golf with my brothers once a week. I'm doing everything right .. itll just take time to find her and sometimes that wait gets me down. Thank you for listening!!!