Won't give much deatils or talk about good aspects of that (if there's any), also this is not a debate about if this ia ethic or not, but want to share how I broke the habit and what I plan next, and of course I would like to hear similar expiriences or tips.

Finally I was able to not visit any lady since November but it wasn't easy: I could not control myself, had very low self control, so I had to subscribe to a good content blocker on my PC, and smartphone combined to a Python script that I made to encrypt and save passwords, web domains banned on internet provider config, and the unlock to some possible bypasses so I could only read that encryoted file in case of emergency with the timed python script. (1h to unlock)

So there's a big resistance now to try to contact with ladies. System still is somehow breakable but quite solid.

But it's sad I had to rely on this to abstain myself from primitive shit. What really pissed me off more than wasting money on hot brazilian, venezuelan or colombian young girls or developing a shortcut lazy habit, it was feeling like I haven't the control, to feel like a monkey. To be completely aware of that, and still cannot abstain and fail.

But also, easy effortless sex with high standard physiques have its consequences. You dont care about chances anymore. And you end up seeing women as an object.

F. e, I had a really easy opportunity with a beautiful girl this autumn, but I probably show some red flags, or wanted me to work hard for her, or just lost interest in me, so I ended up ghosting her, because this 'games' or behaviour makes me feel obsessed and lose focus on my life, and she doesn't care too because we didn't greet the other day on the local pub.

Anyways I couldn't connect with her. With her or any girl. In general I feel so different from them, I think their live is way different from mine, I can not empahsize with their reality, I cannot see a reason I would feel comfortable next to a woman. Always judged, misunderstood, having to give rather than get, having to invest time, I dont like formal relationships. I don't like how I should behave to be a good partner.

It's a problem with me, so I renounce to women. I'm toxic for them and I'm poisoning myself too if they're in my mind. Since I was a kid I liked them so much but at the same time never wanted them close to me.