I can't fake it til I make it. I take everything as a joke and cant even flirt right without bursting into laughter. Everyone around me wants special treatment and nothing easy going, plus everyone is basic af, they don't even go to the nature. Because everyone is basic I do stuff like flirting flippantly. I'm above average when it comes to looks, I work out every day and have some visible muscles, it's like I'm so done with people that I'm flippant about everything including seduction but the problem is that I don't want to be like this, I actually want sex, passion and relationship. Why am I like this?