So I'm going back to school for computer science. It's mostly dudes but this fit black girl sits next to me. I introduce myself and ask her to hang out sometime and study. She is very receptive and down. We meet at a hotel lobby and sit next to each other. I know I should take it slow but I find her sexy so incorporate some light kino. I am putting my arm around her and giving her shoulder massages saying that she seems "stressed". She is very ok with it and says I am very "handsy". I suggest we continue to hang out and go get something to eat. I had a headache setting in and so had my energy down and started talking less and less.

I've struggled with low self esteem most of my life and so I fell into this trap that a lot of guys fall into. This idea that you have to be funny and full of energy all the time for girls to like you. So on the walk back from the eatery I had said something like "Hey I'm usually more fun I just have a headache." To which she replied "You're not cool?" As if to say "What are you talking about, you're totally cool and I like hanging out with you." And she was right. What the fuck was I talking about? I am totally cool and don't be on point all the fucking time for girls to like me.

Just a reminder that we really are our own biggest cock-blocks and that you're cooler than you think. Thanks for reading.