I do not have the problem with picking up girls anymore... but i still feel like i am not ready for awesome girls. It's not that those girls are ugly trolls , some are really pretty... but their attitude makes me sad. 99% of the girls i get are the girls in ther "peak" (20-24) on the edge to becoming fat with a disgusting personality and no plans for their lives whatsoever... and even worse ar the rooms som e of them live in. Let's describe them as dirty shitholes. It makes me sad to spend time with them i feel like a "fun" charity for them... . In the last weeks i met some awesome girls, but those girls makes me stutter and hasitate , its not because of their looks , i feel like their happieness and coolness are threatening to me... i can't explain whats going on.

Story example : While i went out last week i met a girl( lets call her Ann) who was in a group i hung out with alot 1-2 years ago, i never talked much to her back then, i was gaming a girl of her group. we talked a bit i gamed her to we had a lot of fun. I got the number of the first girl i was gaming but didn't pull. I went home and thought about this again "why can i game those non-happy woo-girls" but not those gorgeous fun girls because Ann was just awesome. She was chill an witty and is studing and has a job and can live on her own. Then she texts me via Facebook "I didn't know you were that cool ;)" and we texted a bit and then i went to sleep. The next day fucking met her via coincedence and i turned to stuttering chode mode... and i saw that "i bet get out of this situation"-look in her eyes.

This happens a lot. don't give me advise what i sould write her. What can i do to make me feel better or chill?

TL;DR I get girls with shitty lifes (both hot and regular) (maybe those are low hanging fruits), but i am unable to spend time with well social adjusted awesome funny intelligent girls regardless of their looks, without turning into a stuttering chode again.

Anyone some tipps/suggestions ?