So my divorce has been finalized and I successfully got the 50/50 parenting plan I thought was best for our son. Finally for a new apt for my son and myself.

I should be happy but at times I just can’t stop thinking about her. Our marriage was toxic and being divorced is definitely right. But I still regularly dream about her and the good times we did have. I try to keep my mind busy so I don’t think about it, but sometimes my mind wonders in that direction. It’s rough I want to be past it all but it feels like I’m stuck on an emotional plateau.

I think about trying to date but then feel apprehensive that I might not be ready, or worse not worth it. My self esteem took a massive blow in the marriage. I’ve tried dealing with things day by day, but the monotony of that is starting to drive me insane. I need a path forward but I feel like I’m stuck now. It’s only been 6 months since we split up and started the divorce, and I know that’s not that long but I guess I just want to be farther along the healing process, or at least feel like I’m moving forward.

I’m not asking any real questions just more venting my emotions somewhere I feel I’ll be heard.