It’s been 3 months since I’ve had anything more than a makeout. I’m so desperate, and yes, my entire self worth is based on getting girls. I know it’s bad but I judge other guys on how many girls they get with too. Why shouldn’t I? It’s a sign of your courage and social skills which I obviously have none of. Multiple female friends tell me I’m good looking, im attractive etc but I truly don’t give a shit about that anymore. I’m not good enough to approach and all I feel is anger on a daily basis. Why am I not good enough for the girls at this college? What’s wrong with me? Deep down I know it’s my approach anxiety, but even then I think a handsome guy with no Game would luck into sex once in a while.

Again, I failed to approach tonight. I matched with a girl on tinder I thought was cute that went to the college, and I’ve seen her looking at me in the dining hall. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why couldn’t I approach her? I’d even dance close and she came over and danced near me. But I never made a fucking move and I failed like I always do. I watched her literally hook up with 2 gay guys. A girl would literally get with gay guys over me. Why shouldn’t I kill myself at this point?