I always spoke highly of him. But this wasn’t his first time. He’s low confident so always feels comfortable with “nurses” in hospital settings He was crying alot last night for this “un harmful” conversations he was deleting when that nurse called him at 11pm. He was swearing it wasnt “romantic” and was already trying to end but got caught and it was from just 3 to 4 weeks. My hands are trembling writing this. Im numb and in denial. Im angry and so much hurt. I cant tell how much I care for him. Do for him. From calling my therapist to mend my relationships on my behalf. Ive never ever cheated with ANYONE in anything ever since the moment he came into my life. He’s also done everything for me. But see everything seems fake and a lie. I saw a message where he said “Ill call you back” and she said “when, Im waiting “ this last friday when he was busy in “emergency “. He was sitting in my feet for 3 hours at night and was getting late for his late night shift but nothing matters to me anymore. It was a usual expected behaviour. I went home last night from my duty to meet him only to get to know this. Im sleepless nauseous hungry tired and teary now sitting in my hospital and have a long day aheat with my patients and colleagues.

He was fearful that if I talk to her he’ll lose his respect at his hospital. You know what is most painful. All those lovebombing and true love gestures he showed me in these last 4 weeks. This fakery and hypocrisy when he was cheating behind my back in his work city

My head is spinning I dont know how will I deal with everything

And he didnt tell her that hes married and has a daughter because he thought she wont take interest in him and will talk foul about him among his colleagues.

Before this he wasn’t involved this much. So I could forgive him. Im just feeling pity for myself.