Went to the club today and I looked a lot hotter than 7 months ago and even a girl approached me outside and this was before I went inside. She seemed really energetic and happy when she spoke with me initially but after talking a bit she rolled her eyes and started speaking with someone else.

The first chick was sober and she hadn't drunk anything.

The first girl complimented me on my physique as well and kept saying she likes lustful things a lot.

While waiting outside another girl kept touching me when we were outside and another one got so close to me, this one was drunk and she almost kissed me but was I wussy to not do it? I hadn't kissed a girl before in my life and her lips were coming very close and I backed out and her hands were all over me.

I think I really fucked up inside the club though because the girl that was into me quickly left the trio were talking in. A dude who I was speaking with introduced me to his friends but one girl didn't like me so they kicked me kinda out when I asked to contact them later if meetup at a club party or something through Insta as friends because my friends don't go to parties anymore and they're all married, lol.

I did dance with a girl and a guy at the party but if I asked a group of girls they would just avoid me and roll their eyes. I hyped up the party a bit without liquor and just a Red Bull can and I almost lost my expensive watch in the process, lol.

Anyway, I think I learnt a few things today, one I got to get better at talking with girls because I was able to easily speak with guys as usual and the last time I was also out the guys wanted to exchange numbers. Number two; I figured out I was just fucking talking too much.

I also figured out I need to keep self-improving on myself so instead of going out each week. I am going to go out every 2 weeks possibly and try to do natural events with people like Toastmasters or just meetup events.

I know I'm attractive and I know many people gravity towards me...maybe not online as much but irl they like me a shit ton usually because I've befriended people easily in bars and clubs. I also became better at talking with girls because I initiated the talk outside the club with a girl and another guy with me but I just have to learn to work towards moving it forward further and initiating more stuff. I don't know man, I'm already pretty attractive now and even get compliments from guys and girls left and right but I keep fumbling with girls even though I know how to talk to them easily.

I'm going on a dating feud thing tomorrow so hopefully, everything works out there after seeing how hard it was for me as an Indian who has grown up in the West and never got action even after trying my ass off, I think I'll even be happy with a gf at this point, haha! Just someone to love me and my goal first was to build a roster of love but that might not be possible at this point.

Espically now that I'm older and never even had an experience outside of a hooker like that is horrible.

TLDR: Went to the club today and will try again in 1-2 weeks, while exploring other options like dating apps and other shit. I like painful situations and uncomfortable so this was fun for me.