I’ve been on many dates over the last year. Most ending some form of kissing/making out after, some with just a simple hug, but all of them fading away within 2 weeks. I’m not sad about that, I’m just tired. The most recent person I went out fucked me up entirely. Went out on 2 dates. We had an amazing time. First date had light kino, the second one was FULL of it, initiated mostly by here. The part that fucked me up was the end of the date. We were about to kiss for the first time and she legitimately froze, leading to the most awkward moment of my life, maybe hers too. She texted me later that she wanted to hold off on going on another date cause she wanted to figure what was going on with herself at the end there.

At this point I’m starting to think no matter what I do or how I present myself, I’m not romantic enough or I’m just doing something wrong. I don’t know what it is and I’m just tired now.