My fiancé no longer wants to marry me because of my past

This is a unique scenario that I believe ONLY this subreddit would ever understand. Please be honest! I am torn up about this but I want the truth! Also no this is not ragebait, I know to some women it would be worth the mental torment for the sake of love and money but this is very hard for me.

I (22) have been with my fiancé (31) for a year. We fell in love and got engaged very quickly. I would consider us upper echelon, top 1% man and top 1% woman. I don’t say this to be haughty, I say it to drive the point home of how very logical and special this connection is to us and we are certain we’re soulmates. We are in a dom/sub very traditional relationship. He is similar to Andrew Tate in his views of the world and about dating. He is very dominant, head of the household, masculine.

He recently found out that I made Snapchat videos having sex with my ex from 5 years ago, about 3 of them, and hasn’t been the same for months. He is not my first, I have a body count of 4 and this bothers him too. He has always made comments on how virgin women are ideal.

At the same time, he went from making about $70k per month to now making around $30k per day. This number has only been getting higher and higher as the weeks go on with no signs of stopping. I project he will be making six figures per day by the end of the year.

Coincidentally around the same time as both of these events, he decided he did not want to marry me anymore or have kids with me because of my past and now wants to be non-monogamous. Not forever, just temporarily. He was this way in all of his previous relationships, where the woman would be loyal to him and he would have physical relationships with other women. He is very attractive and extremely tall so he’s never had problems getting women, and now being very rich means he could have sex with anyone. I need to stress that he only wants to have sexual relationships with women and he doesn’t build emotional connections easily nor does he want to. He’s never even slept with the same hookup twice. He describes these women as “pounds of flesh” that satisfy his testosterone driven, carnal desire.

He also says that this helps him forget about my past and the money has helped too, so both of these things have made him love me more and in a way want to “reward my acceptance” of his sleeping with other women.

I have told him and cried to him on many occasions about how broken up this makes me. It’s all I think about, I now trust him less and love him less and resent him. But he says there are only two options; either I resent him for this or he resents me forever for my past. So my only option is to get over it. I am trying to, but it’s causing me severe body insecurities of my own infliction, women messaging me telling me he is cheating on me, and an overall constant rage.

We ended up in a really rocky 3 month limbo where we were technically broken up, he told me he couldn’t be with me. We still talked every day and were still in love, but the energy was different and we saw each other maybe once a week and it was so tumultuous.

Now we are back together and it’s been very loving for the past month because he says he just can’t picture life without me as much as he’s tried to because of my “porn” past. He was also very touched by my calmness and willingness to love him during these months because I understood he was hurting from my past so I was very patient. I was praying every day for him to come back to me, but now that he is back to me, I don’t even know if I’m happy. We had our own little recommitment ritual too, his idea, to celebrate starting fresh.

I feel humiliated. But my conundrum is if I should stick it out since he says this is only temporary? Do I believe those girls online who say “I’d rather cry in a rolls Royce”? I recognize some of you guys may think I’m being ungrateful for my life by focusing on this one little thing. So, here are the good things I’m focusing on that are more than most men could say: I haven’t worked in a year and never will with him unless I want to. He provides for me happily, sending me tens of thousands of dollars each month. He’s been buying me many lavish gifts and designer bags lately, and he’s actually been an amazing partner. He’s always been great, but now with money he’s even more generous and lovely. He gave many of my family members a lot of money the other day, he started booking spa experiences for me and overall upgrading my already soft life. This doesn’t necessarily feel like guilt or apology money, maybe a little, but he’s always been generous and his character is the same as it was when we met. He’s extremely affectionate, he never stops complimenting me and touching me. We have sex every day and oral every day. We have stronger physical chemistry than ever before (and that’s saying a lot!). He makes tons of time from me and takes me on dates, shopping, traveling. He does all of my favorite things. He’s a great listener and emotionally fulfills me. We have the best talks and could talk all day and night, it’s actually ridiculous how much we talk. He is the funniest person I’ve ever met, his IQ is 140, he’s super strong and has abs. He’s 6’7 too, and unfortunately my biological urge as a female is to love that about him!!! Haha!

Do these good things outweigh the bad? I know they are all very rare and amazing things! I know I am lucky! But I can’t help but feel so disgusted by the sleeping with other women and the public humiliation it has caused me I’m sure he’ll change his mind on the marriage and kids thing, but that is also a very concerning thing to say to me when you proposed to me already. Please do not be rude. I know I sound silly but that’s why I need advice 😅