TL;DR: My experience as a woman who was red pilled and why it was worse than being r@ped

A little backstory on myself - in 2015 I was drugged and violently r@ped by two men. One of whom was a man that I had known and had rejected. What ensued resulted in the loss of my job and subsequently my immigration status (as time taken off of work to speak with police and detectives had resulted in my termination and loss of my work visa).

Fast forward to several years later and my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I quit my job and moved back home to become her full-time caretaker and after her passing I moved to a new city in search of a fresh start. Having not dated, socialized, let alone been intimate with anyone in years I craved emotional and physical connection. Despite still reeling from the loss of my mother, I felt optimistic and emotionally ready to date. I had gone through intensive therapy (both after my r@pe and the loss of my mother) to process my grief and work on myself. I didn’t know what love bombing or red-pilling was at the time, and while I was still being wary (or at least I had thought) I put myself out there with the intentional effort of finding a relationship. In the next year and a half that followed, I met different men (one in particular) that I now understand had all used manipulative red-pill tactics on me. Everything from gaslighting to negging, push and pull, triangulation and testing, amongst many others.

And here's the thing - being r@ped technically caused me far greater loss and damage in my life, however the emotional impact of being on the receiving end of red-pill behavior, particularly at an already vulnerable time in my life (that they all knew about), was far worse. It actually left me suicidal.

R@pe was just something that had happened and then it was done. But the intentional and concerted effort of being emotionally broken down and destroyed by men that I thought I was just trying to love actually broke me in a very profound and life-changing way. 

R@pe did not make me hate men. It made me think that it was ‘some’ men. But being red-pilled, not just by one man, but by multiple men, changed how I view men as a whole and made me give up on dating completely.

So to those who have left the red pill movement I congratulate you; but I have to ask - what exactly is the objective of red-pilling a woman and why? Because from my own anecdotal experience, it seems far less to do with the acquisition of sex and more to do with destroying a woman who has shown interest in you. Ideology is one thing, but when it is actively applied in an intentional effort to destroy an innocent person - what are they really trying to gain? What is their end goal? And why?