I've never had an issue with getting girls relationships in school, university or work. Even when things ended it barely took me a day.

Until I met easily the most gorgeous woman I've seen. It was her first date because she comes from a gender segrated small town. She was low on funds but I still overordered because I wanted her to eat. She refused to let me pay and handed her cash. It was just short by a lil bit I covered it. We got a drink and then headed back to my place. She was super open to stuff but clearly very inexperienced. We didn't go all the way cuz it hurt her. After that I dropped her home. I kept texting her she texted me back saying she had gotten more money and wanted to take me out to dinner as a return favor and return my helmet. I'd used it as a way to see her again. I was stuck in a family emergency but couldn't go. I texted her one more time but never heard from her again.

I went on two dates post that and slept with another. Earlier this would be a good exciting week but now it feels meaningless. I eventually stopped dating because I was mentally checked out and started working overtime because that's the only time I'd not think of her. I feel like I have completely lost interest in women as a whole. Dates and hookups feel like a waste of time, but to what point do I work myself to the bone. I want to get back in to feel alive again.