I feel stupid. I bought my 3 year old a Christmas gift so that he could give it to my stbxw. Thinking this is what parents should do. Did I expect anything in return? No. Did I get anything? No. As I sit here New Year’s Eve alone is this what the future is? Do things for my kid so that he knows his dad loved his mom. Let him give her things for Christmas, mother’s day….I want her to succeed, I want him to know love from everyone around him. Which he does. I want him not to fear the situation that we are going through. She would not even let me see him on Father’s Day. He is 3…. I am going to navigate this but this is hard.